saw this topic at one of the forums, characteristics of an ideal girlfriend. and so i began to think. what i want is nothing spectacular, just someone with normal looks, filial, kind, understanding, and most importantly, someone who understands me well. oh well, it seems like i will never get what i want. why is it that i am always seeing others' happiness with envy? why can't i have my own happiness? well, getting emotional again, just gotta learn to take things in my stride, happiness will come one day. at least, i will be more happy by consoling myself this way. i've learnt to be more courageous but still, i still can't get what i want. i've learnt to cherish and treasure but it's of no use. =) gonna spend this night away quietly.